I am amused at myself. I have never felt this “consumed” with wanting to fulfill a desire or achieve a goal for a long time. 
It seems that even though I’m still at work and I try to focus on finishing all my tasks before the holiday vaction, there is one thing that keeps pre-empting all other thoughts in my mind: I want to buy a new CPU (or, to be technically correct, a system unit) for my youngest brother!
I’m supposed to be doing my work and after that, doing my exercises due on Friday… but all I really want to do is look at the price list that I’ve gathered from a few computer store websites and try to see if I can have a complete system unit assembled with the budget I have in mind because… I really, really, really want to buy a new CPU for my youngest brother.
I realized a few days ago that I could not anymore stand hearing my brother beg for a new computer since the one we have right now–a very obsolete Pentium 2–could not run Eclipse.
Even though my youngest brother and I are different in many ways, somehow I can see my past self in him in terms of the difficulties that he is going through. I remember having to code in pen and paper during my first two years in college because we didn’t have a PC at home. And when my mother bought me a second-hand PC during my third year, it was so slow that I had to wait around a minute before my programs would compile (using an IDE with integrated compiler). Yeah, I had a computer during my last two years in college alright, but coding using my machine turned most of the pleasure and excitement into almost a chore. Now that my brother is into Computer Science himself and he programs as well, I can relate to what he is going through. And now that I can do a little something to help him, I will do it… that is, if my budget permits.
Hmm, I still could not afford a top of the line, eat-your-heart-out-with-envy unit but I think my brother would already be happy with anything that is more than a Pentium 2. Hmmm, a Pentium 4 at least?
Who knows? Maybe we can upgrade next year. 
I just hope I’ll be able to buy a motherboard that will support later processor models. 
God, I really hope I can buy my brother a new CPU. And I wish I will feel this “consumed” every day… though not necessarily because I want to buy something :)
